Well, if you don't know, this blog is about me.
I'm not sure exactly who I am,
what I like or where I want to go in my life.
All I know is, i'm not normal. I don't think normal is easy to define, but I think that what each person thinks is normal is usually their way of doing things / habits they have obtained over long periods of time and feel comfortable with to some extent.
These habits may be completely pointless and destructive to the person doing them, but unfortunately quite often this is the case and people find changing their ways hard.

Because of my upbringing in an alcoholic environment, I've been affected a lot, and I have obtained lots of mad thought processes and habits, some of which I described briefly in my previous post.

I've been lonely for a while and doing very little with my life. So i've decided that I have to do something in order to get out of this big rut i'm stuck in. I am attending Alanon meetings 2 or three times a week but  my main goal is to meet people and make friends, but to begin with my only real goal is to be able to approach and talk to strangers. This weekend I've attempted saying hello to strangers out and about. It's funny how I end up walking to places where there are very few people, but the views were scenic.

I managed to say hi to a few people I wouldn't have said Hi to usually, which was nice. But I also didn't manage to say Hi to some people, especially people who are around my age. I'm going to have to push myself tommorow and say HI to everyone no matter what their age or gender. It's  going to be very hard, even harder than I imagined, but I've got to keep trying.

I also attempted going out into town twice this week, both times failing as I was unable to approach strangers in this environment. I'm sure i'm capable of it, I just have to keep trying.