Well, just over a week ago I set myself some goals. In all honesty I haven't looked at them since I wrote them. Looking back, writing a list of goals for the week wasn't helpful. I need to focus on each day as I live it.

I had some success at the weekend. I managed to have brief conversations with a few strangers and a longer conversation with some guys. AFter that I felt confident, I felt no anxiety and felt like I could happily go up to anyone and speak to them, although it was 2 am and I was heading home and I didn't pass anybody. I realised that I can socialise a bit, it actually felt good and as though I was in the zone where anything was possible. If I can get to a point where I can have that feeling most of the time then i'll be very happy.

One thing I struggle with is being able to talk or tell a story for a reasonable length of time. Because at home my conversations with my mum are usually a brief few words and don't involve telling stories ect, when I'm outside socialising it's as though I don't have a lot to say all at once. I know this comes with experience, so i'll have to stick at it. I was thinking that it would be a good idea to write down some stories from my life, in a notebook and practice saying them out loud until I feel confident talking for a few minutes. It may sound silly, but I think it will be helpfull.