Well it's been a while since I wrote on my blog. Things are strange at the moment. I have a girlfriend who I have been going out with for about three weeks. Relationships seem to stir up severe underlying problems from being brought up in an alcoholic environment. I find myself worrying a lot and when i'm not completely sure of how she feels this hurts a lot and makes crazy thoughts of all the possible problems, go through my mind. These thoughts are almost unbearable and take complete control of my emotions. I'll keep battling on, but it's going to be very very hard.